I know what it's like to not want to have sex as much as you used to in a long-term committed relationship.
I, too, felt guilty and stressed about not wanting it.
I wanted to want it, but I didn't.
I loved my partner and wanted them to be happy, and yet I felt this pressure that caused resentment.
I was frustrated with myself because of my difficulty saying "no", but I was getting mad at my partner for wanting it.
I could get in the mood after things got started, and I would tell myself "I need to remember this for next time" (you know-like going to the gym-you don't really want to go, but once you are there you get into it) only to find myself dreading the next time and avoiding it.
I felt broken.
I was exhausted from taking care of everything and everyone and sex became one more thing on my "to do" list, usually at the bottom.
I was avoiding any circumstance that could lead to it.
Hugging, kissing and making eye contact decreased, and I started going to bed at a different time than my partner.
I was in the Vortex of Intimacy Avoidance.
I resorted to having a drink or two when I thought "too much time has passed, tonight it needs to happen" so I could relax and enjoy myself.
Sex became the elephant in the room, and both my partner and I were awfully aware of it.
That was me....
That stressful and painful place killed all the fun and intimacy in my most important relationship.
Until one day, I decided NO MORE and I made myself a promise.
I promised myself I would figure this out for my sake and the sake of so many women that live in fear and worry of what will happen to their relationship or marriage if they can not keep this up forever.
And I did.
I figured it out.